let’s be uncomfortable

let’s be uncomfortable

No funny pictures, no silly quips. I’m not doing well.  I’m not writing–not because I don’t have stories, but because I just keep thinking about how pointless it is–and I know that it’s the stuff in my head.  I keep thinking about where I’ve been every February for the last three or four years, and it just makes it worse.

Last February, I was thinking that I had a future, that I might be able to make something out of myself as a writer. That didn’t happen.

In 2010, I was excited about moving forward as a writer. I was working on things, and I had plans and ideas.  It was a hard semester, working two jobs and school, but I felt okay.  I was also on medication and swimming regularly.

In 2009… okay, I won’t lie.  I was falling apart. I don’t remember most of 2009 because it was easily the worst year of my life (though 2012 is working to top it already).

And then in 2008, I was losing weight and eating well.  I hated my job, but I had money saving up. I wasn’t maxed out on my credit card, and thing were going so well.

I just wish things weren’t so damned terrible.

I also wish that my mother would shut UP about politics.

it’s the end of the world as we know it

it’s the end of the world as we know it
it’s the end of the world as we know it

Start your engines!  Drag Race is back, and it’s cattier than ever.

And we know that this is going to be a Sharon Needles appreciation blog

I almost don’t know where to start with this show. I’m usually all about the politics in media, be they sexual politics, identity politics, etc., but this is the show that throws it all out the window.  Drag is perhaps one of the most unPC versions of expression, but it’s also so important to shining a light on some of the crazy things people think.  It’s the definition of “breaking a few eggs” to get that point across.

Which isn’t to say that I don’t have a few political things to bring up, mostly with regard to weight. Because that is how I roll.

So, because at this point there are SO MANY QUEENS, it’s easier to give a brief synopsis and then go straight to the runway, because that’s the easiest way to really go over my thoughts and feelings for the queens. The episode starts with the typical intro scene, and most the queens blow it.  Honestly, I could only remember about five queens out of thirteen and kept having to stop the episode to look and try and suss it out.  Sharon Needles, Chad Michaels, Latrice Royale, Kendra, and Jiggly Caliente stayed with me, but the rest was a mess of glitter and eyeliner.  And then SHEMAIL! It’s 2012! It’s the end-times. It’s going to be apocalyptic-couture time at Rupaul’s Drag Race, and there is a lot of runway chaff to be lost in that first bit of fire and brimstone. Read the rest of this entry

oh miss manila, ooh la la indeed

oh miss manila, ooh la la indeed

How can you not love this look?

Tonight is the premiere of Rupaul’s Drag Race, season 4, and I am all a twitter with anticipation. I’m going to break down a post tonight/tomorrow of who I love after watching the FB teaser and who I just can’t wait to shut the hell up, but first! I am going to shamelessly promote the video from my favorite contestant from last season (and honestly, favorite overall), Manila Luzon.

Manila has that It sparkle that you can’t really fake.  Yeah, there were some looks/makeup that she rocked in the third season that I didn’t fall in love with, but she’s so much more than a man in a dress with some makeup on her face.  She’s fun and bubbly, and she’s so damn campy and visually inclined that you can’t help but smile at some of the looks she does.  Her outfits are usually to die for/die laughing over, and it is showcased in the video.

Moreover, the song is fun, catchy, and has that same smile-factor that IS pure Manila. It’s just fantastic.  It’s available on iTunes, and I strongly encourage everyone to buy one.  I love it.  It makes you want to dance, as all dance tracks should. AND she rhymes Gaultier and Target.  It’s fabulous.

One last thing, if you’ve seen the show, you remember Manila’s speech of why she should win the grand prize, about being a child of a loving and supportive home, how that’s so important and she can embody that. This video features a baby!Manila doing as a baby drag queen will, and it’s just so unexpectedly heartwarming and sweet that it made even me smile.  Baby Manila is adorable, just throwing it out there.

Seriously.  Just watch the video.  It’s not that long, it’s an independent artist doing her thing, and we all should support that, right?

I was so alone and you gave me so much

I was so alone and you gave me so much

You know why I'm here

So it’s been a week since “The Reichenbach Fall,” and I’m still processing it.  Anyone who is familiar with “The Final Problem,” let alone see the episode, knows that Sherlock’s death is not the end. He’ll be back in typical Sherlock Holmes fashion, but it doesn’t dampen the way the last moments were gutting.  John is utterly alone, and this episode makes no qualms about showing that.

Unlike most Watsons, John is actually alone.  The show has always taken great pains to try to establish John’s girlfriends, going from the “ladies’ man” Watson you see glimpses of in Conan-Doyle’s stories and novels, from John trying to hit on Anthea to his doomed flirtation with Sarah to the boring school teacher in first episode of this series.

Of course, this also seems to be the show’s way of reminding us, tiringly so, that John is straight.  It’s a bit more effective than John’s constant cracks about how people are going to talk about he and Sherlock.  Of course they’ll need to two rooms! Thank god no one saw Sherlock ripping off John’s semtex coat. People might talk. Confirmed bachelor? What does that mean? (Sherlock himself is barely better. While his own apparent asexuality/disinterest in sex is commented on occasionally, perhaps most humorously in this exchange, he comments about the naked lady pictures on John’s laptop.  It is worth commenting that Sherlock seems less concerned with the rumors about he and John.  He acknowledges them, but he doesn’t get hung up about it.)

But really, with the constant reminders of the fact that John is straight (because god forbid we just let it go for one damned episode; I shudder to think what this show would do with someone who was actually gay. The reminders of that would be probably more obtrusive and easily more offensive, judging by the show’s track record.), it also reminds us that John is alone.  He doesn’t talk to his drunk of a sister; he doesn’t have any other family.  His friendship/partnership with Sherlock is implied to have cost him every single girlfriend he’s had since they met.  Before that, John was quite frankly a wreck, so it’s unlikely that he had a girlfriend since he came home from Afghanistan.

What makes the loss of Sherlock, even though the audience knows Sherlock is alive, so incredibly powerful is that John is alone now.  He is, in many ways, the sad sack he was at the beginning of series one. He’s alone again; he’s back at his therapist.  He doesn’t have a place to live. It’s hard to be sure, but in certain shots of John at the cemetery, it appears that even his damn limp is back.

To compare his plight to Ritchie’s Watson, who is shaken by Holmes’ death, he seems even more lost.  When Holmes dies in the stories, Watson is married.  He has his wife to keep him buoyant in this horrible moment where he has lost the very best man that he’s ever know. Watson appears shell-shocked at Holmes’ funeral, but the last scene of the movie is him starting to move on with his life.  He has his wonderful home with Mary, and he seems happier.  They are going on their honeymoon.

And then Watson learns that Sherlock is actually alive. He is able to deduce looking at Mycroft’s breathing device that Holmes survived his encounter with the falls.  The ending is much more ambiguous, too.  There is no body.  Watson, of course, doesn’t see Holmes, but he knows that his friend has survived.

Compare that to the fact that John watched Sherlock take that last step off the roof, that Sherlock gave John his note, because that is what people do in those situations.  He saw his friend’s body; he saw the blood and Sherlock’s blank eyes.  He saw everything (or at least he thinks he did).

This isn't a scarring image at all.

Sherlock isn’t really much of a srs bznss show.  Sure, Cumberbatch and Freeman were nominated for BAFTAs (and Freeman won, as well as the show) but it’s much more of a romp with laughter and adventure than it is a show about Issues and Implications.  It’s a show about two friends, at its core, and to watch one friend lose the other in such a dramatic and graphic fashion is deeply unsettling.  Even knowing that Sherlock isn’t actually dead in the image above, it’s hard to look at it.  (It would be easier to look at if I would look for stills, but hey. I do most of my image searches on Tumblr, and at least this one isn’t over-saturated green with SOPA over Sherlock’s eyes.)

For all its weaknesses and silliness, Sherlock managed to do what I would have said was impossible.  The man who wrote “The Blind Banker” wrote one of the emotive episodes of the series and possibly the best overall. I’ve only covered one of a hundred facets that made this episode compelling.  I’m planning on working up an entire post about one Molly Hooper because she is perhaps the most redeemed aspect of this show, depending on who is writing her. It is a hard episode to get through, with some of the plot twists it makes, and it has far too many “gotcha” moments, but when you step back and look at the entire episode–or even just those last ten minutes, from the moment Sherlock talks to John on the roof to the last shot in the cemetery–it’s hard not to have some kind of visceral experience, if even to feel the absolute loneliness of John Watson.

inclusion of the nerd girl

inclusion of the nerd girl

This is actually what most super hero ladies would wear

Look, let’s not beat around the bush.  Nerd-dom, particularly comics, sci-fi, and video games? Male-dominated.  Girls have made huge in-roads, but as this dude on Kotaku points out, uh. The in-roads are kind of like making a badly marked access road off a six-lane highway.  It’s a start, but sometimes it feels like it’s better to bash your head against glass.  You’ll get further!

I’m not going to talk about idealized female bodies. We all (should) know that if those super ladies were actually fighting crime, they wouldn’t be all voluptuous curves and barely supported breasts.  They’d be muscular, with wider waists and smaller breasts, perhaps even a C or a B instead of rocking full-out Powergirl chests.  We know that vinyl and skin-tight leather squeak and make noise, and they don’t breathe. (I’m not going to get into the idealized male bodies in comics; that’s another post entirely.  TL;DR: It’s a different kind of idealization and isn’t about titillating like their female-bodied counterparts.)

Instead, let’s talk about how there’s this pervasive idea of “If girls don’t like it, they shouldn’t buy it,” as in relation to comics. It’s an interesting argument; it may have even had a point at sometime–oh, wait, no. There has never been a point where comics that weren’t full of casual sexism and terrifically, over the top sexy poses.  Golden Age Wonder Woman was always playing “binding games” with her sisters, and her comics were rife crap like this.  Why would a woman, or hell, a little girl be interested in ideas like that?  In the recent rebootening, Starfire (who was introduced to many little kids thanks to her teenage counterpart in Teen Titans) was given amnesia, and it’s pretty much the grossest thing ever. One little girl spoke up and called it crap. She called it crap, because it is crap.

There’s a but coming up, but first I have to note that DC decided to parse the fact that Starfire is an amnesiac sexbot and people are upset as “But why aren’t you parenting?” Because that’s the big issue.  The fact that a seven year old is upset that Starfire is posing by the pool, in a suit that serves no function.  She can’t swim in that suit.  It’s there to show off her super sexy bod.

So. Why in an era when comic books sales are floundering, particularly as serials, are we saying “If you don’t like it, don’t buy it?” to I’d say a good quarter to third of the comic book reading audience? Why are we going out of our way to hook little girls, who will someday become women, possibly with cash to burn on extra books and merchandising? Doesn’t that feel, oh, I don’t know. Backwards.

There are girls out there that have watched the DCAU, all the way into Batman: Brave and the Bold and Young Justice. There are little girls out there that are watching Avengers: Earth’s Mightiest Heros. I have seen little girls talk about how awesome Lady Sif was in Thor.

I ranted about Lego Friends before, but they had part of the message right.  Little girls DO like to see themselves in the story, they do like to pretend that they are in that story and a character there.  When I was a little girl, I wanted to BE Yvonne Craig in the 60s Batman show.  She was so pretty, and she was awesome, and and and. I liked the reruns better when she was there.  I’d like to think that I was a pretty typical little girl growing up, in that if there was a token lady on your show, that was who I watched.

But that was my starting crack into the comic world.  I loved Barbara Gordon as a librarian, and I loved her as Oracle.  But I very rarely buy serialized comics.  I buy collections after I know what’s happened, and how much fail they are going to bring.  I know that this industry that I care about is dying.  I know that there if going to be a day when all the stores are closed and no books come in the mail, and it makes me sad.  There are so many wonderful stories and characters that are going to be lost to the world when those books are silenced.  It still isn’t enough to make me read them, because I need to know how many Starfires I can expect, how many times women are going to be raped in an issue.

I’m not alone.  There is a treasure-trove of women on the internet who love comics.  Hell, they write comic fanfic and analyze comics and vicious debate characters like any collective of fannish people.  But many of them don’t buy comics either, until they come out in trades. Some of them because it’s a monetary issue, sometimes because they want to know the story is going to be good and not turn into a mess. Some of them because they don’t like reading about sexbots.

And apparently, that doesn’t matter. Our money doesn’t go as far as male fans’ money. After all, if we don’t like it, we shouldn’t buy it.

The comic book industry doesn’t seem to mind our lost sales.

Sherlock: sometimes they stumble into great things

Sherlock: sometimes they stumble into great things

Or getting Mark Gatiss to write it

I’m having a busy week, and I want to recap both Sherlock and Once Upon a Time, and maybe touch on Lalaloopsy dolls.  Yes, my writing blog has somehow become my thoughts on TV and toys, but hey. Roll with it.

After last week’s dreary and disturbing-in-a-bad-way turn, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to see this episode.  The Sherlock Holmes source material is frankly awful. Arthur Conan Doyle should have stuck to faeries and short stories, and The Hound of the Baskervilles has a mystery at least as old as Jessica Fletcher. Young rich person gaslighted! Old family friend floating around the fringes of the story. Mysterious happenings! Murder! I wonder how it plays out!

Sherlock’s updates were, as usual, well-done, thought after last week I cared a little less about all this government crap.  It was worth it to see John pull rank on a base, and security checks scrolling over the walls was excellent.  I had to laugh at the sentry’s allowing Sherlock and John admittance, as while there are similarities in Sherlock and Mycroft’s mannerisms, they do not resemble each other in miniature. I can let that pass, I suppose, for the inclusion of Bluebell, the mysterious rabbit, coming back into the story.  The economy of Sherlock is perhaps one of its biggest strengths. Nothing is wasted or played just for a laugh.  There is something behind it, always.

The laughs come from Sherlock and John themselves, too, rather than from the random side characters. Sherlock and John just need to interact and the humor comes, and Gatiss really lets that interaction shine.  The episode did have a few weak spots, but Gatiss didn’t let those stay spongy.  He made Sherlock be Sherlock or John react as only John can, and it brought things back into sharp focus.

Like many Sherlock episodes, the biggest laughs were in the beginning.  Much like John’s battle with the chip and pin machine or last week’s outing with Moriarty, Sherlock’s entrance into the story just feels like it can’t be anymore perfect before he starts craving a fix, and then it IS better.

Sherlock and John? Have played Clue, of all games. Well, Cluedo in the script, as this is a proper British version.  It’s very hard to make this post not sound like some second-rate Harry Potter fanfiction with colour and random British slang peppering the text because I can hear the dialogue in my head as I write this.  The episode is so good that it stays with you in a way that last week’s episode couldn’t, aside from that one exchange between Irene and John.

Seriously, if this reaches anyone that hasn’t seen the first series, check it out when you have a chance.  The pacing problems of last week are like a thing of the past, and the characters are amazing.  Even the side-characters are fun. It feels like a horror-mystery (complete with a terrible CGI reveal!) and it simply can’t be missed.

Moffat might get the credit for reviving Sherlock for the modern world, but his characters are almost painfully ripped from the books. It’s Gatiss who deserves the credit in making them more than the slapdash types they are in Conan Doyle’s tales and makes them bother larger than life and incredibly human. Moffat wouldn’t have thought to have John be genuinely hurt by Sherlock’s declaration that he doesn’t have friend, and Gatiss makes it a point and a moment between them.

Next time: Once Upon A Time, we were supposed to care about Rumple and not one spec of scenery went unchewed.

Lego friends omg yay

Lego friends omg yay

oh my goodness. it's a lego lady and she doesn't even have breasts

You know, I was always a girl who liked her Barbies more than her legos. I played with Legos, but at the top of my Christmas lists were Barbies (or, well, Skippers, to be quite honest.)  I liked being able to play domestic things and sometimes my Barbies went on super secret missions to save the world.

But when I wanted to really get down and build an entire world, I needed Legos because they were small and I could build houses with them.  Little houses, though. Big sets always frustrated me. When I got huge sets, it was such a pain to put them together, and mostly I just wanted to play with the minifigures because they were awesome.  I remember that I had pirate ladies/wenches, so evidenced by the outline of breasts on their little boxy bodies and the lipstick.  Yes, it was cliche and kind of offensive, but it was all in good fun.  Sometimes you just want to be able to try to hodgepodge a pirate ship together out of smaller lego sets.

But my pirate ladies won the day every time, and they did it with nary a pink or purple brick inside.

Lego Friends sounds like a good idea in the beginning, like at first blush. Pink and purple bricks! Okay, yeah, I like that.  I did lament the lack of purple bricks as a child.  Purple bricks sound cool.  More girl figures! That sounds awesome. Legos that are specifically for girls! Ehhh. Part of the fun of Legos is that they’re kind of gender neutral. If you go into Toys R Us, they’re not even in the boy “department” with Pokemon and Action figures, they’re in the middle-activity section where you find beading kits, board games, and crayons.  Yes, more boys play with Legos than girls do, but it’s not a cut and dry thing.

And then there’s focus on friendship and fun! Because what girls need is yet more toys focusing on “fun.” Because toys, in and of themselves, aren’t “fun.” Oh, no. We need to make sure that girls are having silly, frivolous fun. And we need to make sure that the girls are broken down into “types,” as heaven forbid little girls don’t realize that they need to be categorized.

The pictures are also kind of nightmare worthy. Why are they soulless CGI?

This is Barbie movie levels of soulless CGI

I want to applaud Lego for finally seeming to realize that little girls are part of their audience and sometimes colors outside of red, yellow, blue, and green are appreciated, and that including more female minifigures in their sets would be appreciated.  Except, in perhaps the most aggregious of decisions, these Lego Friends? Aren’t minifigures for Lego sets.  They’re Polly Pockets, the same weird, gumby-ish sort of dolls that you find in the doll aisle, only with Lego minifigure hands.

They’re bigger than minifigures, don’t lock into place like minifigures, and as far as I can tell, if you want to recreate the scene of Apollo and Daphne (I was a strange child), you can’t actually break a Lego friend in half and replace her legs with a brown block.

And that’s terrible.

I really think that if Lego had just let Lego Friends be actual minifigures rather than these weird hybrid Polly Pocketish things, it wouldn’t be all bad.  After all, the bricks can be used to make anything, just like “boy” legos.

However, the fact that with this new release, Lego is joining the other toy companies and saying that, yes, there always needs to be a gender line with toys, is crap and disheartening.

I hate to say it, but boring.

I hate to say it, but boring.

This is the moment the episode dove into bad rather than just boring.

Just as an aside, I don’t recognize the term “spoiler-free.” I love spoilers, and I will be spoiling. Whoo.

Sherlock is back!  Sherlock is back! I’m excited. I’m still excited even after last night’s episode, starring the great Lara Pulver as Irene Adler. Much like Sherlock is to Sherlock Holmes (2009), Pulver makes McAdams look like a convincing cosplay with none of the original spirit.

Confession: I read most of the Sherlock Holmes stories as a child, when my grandmother bought me an anthology of them, and I liked them all right. Much like Encyclopedia Brown, though, they held little reread value to me.  They just happened to be things that I read and enjoyed.  “A Scandal in Bohemia” was one of the very few that I loved and read after that original push of stories.  I love Irene Adler, and I love that it’s not so much a mystery as it is a woman handing Sherlock Holmes (the great, even) his ego on a platter.   One of my biggest issues with the new movie series is their treatment of Adler. It’s deplorable and they should feel bad for it, even if they have made Mary awesome, strong, and resourceful in a way that makes my heart warm.

So I wanted to see Irene Adler as done by this production team, and I was not entirely disappointed.  She’s been updated to be a dominatrix, which I thought was a very clever touch, and she is very much a foil for Sherlock the way the original was. I want to love this episode the way I loved “A Study in Pink” and the way I loved “The Great Game.” (The less that is said about “The Blind Banker,” the better.)

There were great parts! There were excellent parts.  My favorite was probably this moment between Sherlock and John. It made their friendship feel very real.  They felt like the great lifelong companions that they are in the stories. They felt comfortable in a way that they didn’t in the first series.

It’s just that the episode was boring before it just said “Hell, why not” and dove into “bad and predictable.” I remember looking at the 45 minute mark and being like “dear god, this is still going?” The brilliant moments were brilliant, but they were few and far between as the episode progressed.  I love that Moriarty just left Sherlock and John because he had a better offer.  I loved that Mycroft was scolding Sherlock in Buckingham palace for not putting on his clothes. I loved, loved, loved the way Sherlock greeted Irene, and I loved that John actually was jealous of Irene for pushing her way into Sherlock’s tolerance/affections.

Above all, I enjoyed that there was a definite decline in the “we’re not gay” moments.  I like the original “well, maybe” tone of them, but more and more they’ve become distressing, almost like they have to stress that there’s nothing bad about being gay…but there is, so Sherlock isn’t.  (And neither is John!)  It was only mentioned twice, both by Irene, and one of the exchanges was the perfect example of the quick, pointed dialogue that I’ve always enjoyed:

Irene: You jealous

John: We’re not a couple

I: Yes, you are…

J: Who the hell knows about Sherlock Holmes, but for the record…I’m not actually gay

I: Well I am. Look at us both.

I like the idea of Irene being gay, because it doesn’t diminish her character in this moment.  She’s textually gay and she’s still going to kick Sherlock’s ass (at least, it seems so at this moment, if you know the story).  It’s just… that’s not what happens.  I’m not going to get into it, but there’s an excellent blog about it here.

The episode dragged and dragged and dragged. Sherlock always did well when there was a equal balance of mystery and character building going on, and, well. There’s no real mystery to this episode, aside from the random 24-esque bits of intrigue with Mycroft, Moriarty, and Adler.  That was awful.  It was awful and nonsensical.  I liked the nod to the idea that Sherlock and John are playing at the fringes of something so large and so terrible, and Moriarty and Mycroft are in the trenches.

But so much time was spent on “Is Sherlock falling in love?” and trying to humanize him, and it didn’t matter. It didn’t matter because the show doesn’t work if Sherlock becomes human. If we thought Sherlock came to traditionally love, the show would be almost broken.  It’s possible Gatiss and Moffat could have fixed it. The episode, much like “The Blind Banker,” felt like it had no stakes.  Sherlock was slightly humanized because he would rescue Irene. Well, that’s nice.  We already knew that he can grow attached to people, as he had with John.  Why does the fact that Adler has a vagina make this somehow new information?

And, well, while I liked this adaption of Irene Adler, I can’t help but feel that the spirit of the character is wrong.  Irene Adler was a woman who wanted to leave the intrigue, and she wasn’t looking for trouble.  She was on her way out of the game, getting married and wanted her happy life, and it was the royalty that went after her, not her seeking a payout from the royalty. That was wrong.  This Adler felt more like the original, but there was just enough of Ritchie’s Adler that it grated and badly. Adler isn’t a thief for hire or in bed with terrorists. She’s either a flirtatious woman or a dominatrix. This doesn’t mean she has to get into bed figuratively with the bad guys.

The first time it felt like Adler had just left, it was confusing narratively, but it made sense in the spirit of the story.  Adler was mentioned once, and she’s only so infamous in the Sherlock Holmes canon because she bested Sherlock Holmes as a woman during the Victorian Era. She. Bested. Sherlock. The ending of this episode, Sherlock bested her.  I am still furious about this.

You know what would have been a been a great humanizing moment, almost a humbling and haunting moment? Let Sherlock lose. I realize that this would have meant losing probably most of the 24 elements, but hey. Maybe the episode wouldn’t have dragged on while still sucking.

Sometimes you can let your male protagonist lose to a woman. It doesn’t even have to be because he was too busy lusting to get it right.  Sherlock has to lose this one, and he didn’t. It’s ridiculous.

I amend my statement: I hated this episode. I’ve always had issues with how this show views women, and by letting Sherlock best Adler (because she had sentiment towards Sherlock) and then rescue her at the very end, it’s done nothing but cement this idea in my mind.

No, seriously.  HE RESCUES HER.  She can’t save herself, she can’t help but fall in love with him, blah blah blah.  I don’t like Ritchie!Adler, but at least she was allowed to save herself.  Sure, Holmes gave her the key, but that’s only unlocking the handcuffs.  She has to use her wits and abilities after that.

There will be a day when my blog doesn’t end in some sort of -ist rant. Today is not that day.

PS: In my new found amusement with Josh Dallas (he played Fandral! in Thor! and we share a birthday!), I feel like I have to point out that Pulver and Dallas were married (but have since separated). Also because I’m obsessed with True Blood I need to mention that Pulver was also Claudine, Sookie’s faerie godmother.

This makes me almost determined to see her in something that doesn’t make me hate her character.

beware, beware you pony folk

beware, beware you pony folk
A what?

These "spooky" masks are not a joke

I’m really rather late to this whole Friendship is Magic party, but I’ve heard the stories.  I’ve seen the videos extolling its virtues as a cartoon show. In all honesty, I thought it was a cute show when I’ve watched a clip online or maybe an episode when I was by a computer that had the Hub. Then I had a day off sick in bed, and there’s youtube with its plethora of episodes (which I won’t be linking to) and I came to “Bridle Gossip.” And Zecora.

My jaw dropped. I’m used to seeing accidental racism, but I watch Zecora and I just go REALLY?

Zecora is a zebra, obviously, and of all the ponies I’ve seen, she’s the only one coded black.  While I’ve not seen all of the episodes, I’m pretty sure that she’s alone in this standing (thanks to a lot of looking through the wiki and at the voice actors for MLP). She’s a master potion maker, a mystic, she’s the Other in every sense of the word.  She’s from a far away land.  She had “spooky” masks on her walls. It’s like the writers looked up magical negro and were like “huh. We can work with that.”

I know what the point of this episode was. Zecora looks scary and seems strange, but she’s actually a wonderful…person and tries to help the protagonists and blah blah blah, to the point where Zecora makes the observation, “Maybe next time you will take a second look, and not judge the cover of the book. “

And honestly, if it were just Zecora, I probably, maybe could roll my eyes and get over it.  Sure, the main six are all coded white and there are no real minorities, but I’ve been watching American television for years.  It has a good message at its core: just because people look, sound, and act different than you, it doesn’t make it right to treat them like absolute crap. In an increasingly isolationist America–I’m looking at you, all those people who have left nasty, bigoted comments defending Loew’s on Facebook–that’s absolutely essential.

That’s when I saw Little Strongheart and Chief Thunderhooves.

I won't insult your intelligence by telling you their race.

My Little Pony, Hasbro?  NO.  No, you do not get a pass.  No, this is not okay. Rehashing a cowboys and Indians plot and sticking our protagonists in the middle? No. War bonnets and war paint (which is shown being applied in the episode)? No. No, no, no. I’m not entirely sure that they didn’t say “how” in the episode, and I refuse to ever go back and watch a damn second of this episode to find out.

Yeah, sure, this is a little kid’s show.  It’s not meant to be deep. It’s not meant to make people think, just to sit back and enjoy.

Except I would argue that, as a show for children, it has a greater responsibility to its audience to avoid crap like this. These sorts of scenarios and moments in our media are what make it possible for racism in its more devious forms (particularly institutional) to exist, because children see these images.  Sure, Zephora’s first episode is about looking past appearance/actions to see the good, but it’s always very clear that Zephora as a character isn’t the same.  She’s not a pony; she’s not part of the main culture.  She can be tolerated, but she can’t be integrated.  Her home is far away, but while she’s in Ponyville, she’ll live out in the forest of unnatural occurrences (the plants grow on their own? it’s a joke that I don’t think works on the show.)

The buffalo aren’t even closely related to the ponies.  They’re like their own class of sub-par (in the non-pony sense) species.  They aren’t even in the horse family.  I know what they were going with in Zecora.  She’s African “horse,” which to most kids is a zebra. There is no reason to have the buffalo if that if the logic they were going for.  A wild horse would have been just as effective, except no, we had to have the buffalo threaten to take back what was theirs and burn trample the village to the ground.

I’m so offended by the racial depictions in this damned show that someone told me that there was a Mexican pony who wore a sombrero and mowed lawns, and I accepted this as truth, sight unseen. I since haven’t been able to verify this Mexican pony and feel that I was probably being trolled, as it’s unlikely those Mexican ponies would be ponies at all.  All Hispanic animals will probably be llamas or something, and I’m afraid of what the Asian animals will be.

Whatever they are, I’m pretty sure they’re going to be wearing a segugasa.

All images are from MLP wiki.

and nothing of value was gained

and nothing of value was gained

Snow White's Wig is Underrated

So since I talk about tv a lot. (I have like four or five posts total, and two of them are about Glee) I’m thinking that I might start doing recaps of the shows that I do watch, just for fun. Ideally this would be Once Upon a Time (where our lovely image is from!), Criminal Minds, RuPaul’s Drag Race, and maybe Glee.  There is most assuredly a post about My Little Pony coming.  I haven’t said anything about that one in a few weeks. But first let’s pretend that I’m a writer with a serious writing blog.

I’ve trashed everything that I’ve written since I left my MFA program. I feel like a fraud. Nothing feels right. I think after the new year, I’m going to pull the mermaid stuff out and look it over again, but for now, woe is the writing process. I’ve got a new position at my place of employment (I’m the department manager of toys. hurrah.) and I feel like doing exactly nothing when I get home. It may be because it’s Christmas and I work in the toy department, but that feels rather convenient, don’t you think?

Anyway, back to waaaay more important TV things: I’m surprise how much I love Once Upon a Time as much as I am indifferent to it. Like I enjoy it, and I recognize that a lot about it is simply terrible. At the same time though, it’s light, fun, and cheesy, and I can’t really get too invested. It’s everything I love in television and so much more. This last episode was particularly amazing because this was NOT all Rumple’s fault, like almost all other things in the story thus far.

And I really am obsessed with Snow White’s wig.  It’s just so bad. It’s gotten better since the pilot, but holy crap that is a terrible wig.  It barely looks like real hair. It looks faker than the fairy tale sets and the cricket CGI.

I guess I’ve put this off long enough: Glee. Oh, Glee. I don’t even know what to do with it anymore.  The sectionals episode and this past Christmas episode were awful and offensive, because it’s Glee, but they were also kind of…dull? I mean, there’s the slut shaming/slamming of stripping as something “bad” people do, and then there was–off the top of my head–the Asian guy pointing out that woks are excellent Christmas gifts(!) but Glee is incredibly screwed up about sex. Glee is incredibly screwed up about race. Story at 11, guys.

The last ten minutes of the Christmas Episode, where they go and sing the most patronizing song ever (“Do They Know It’s Christmas”) to the poors didn’t exist. It’s almost 24 hours later, and I still just don’t know where they get off doing that.  Being poor on Glee has always been a punchline, which is particularly hard to stomach because even though Kurt’s dad is a mechanic and Finn had a single mom, it’s always seemed like these characters are upper middle class at worst, with the exception of Sam and then we had the Very Special Episode about how poor Sam was and how he had to sell his guitar and we’re going to make all the shit we’ve put you through totes better by buying that back and it’s all great now! MUSIC NUMBER WITH KIDS!

…Yeah, I can’t do this now. Maybe now that Glee has a break, I’ll be able to articulate its incredibly bad opinions more coherently. Besides, I have to rewatch the episodes, and they were both so dull that it feels like work to do that.

In much better news, in a way that is politically incorrect in a way that is glorious and kind of the point in the whole thing: RuPaul’s Drag Race is coming back January 30th! I am ridiculously excited. Get more details here.  I rooting for Sharon Needles, Kenya Michaels, and Latrice Royale. The SHADE of it all.

Next time: My Little Pony and its magical Negro.